Hardy Pond

Every morning, I try to walk by a Pond.  Because I can.

I want to take pictures of everything, all the colors, all the reflections.

I suspect the Pond is only 3 feet deep most of the way across, with lots of water weeds.  And ducks, who are very jealous of their own territory.

Every morning I visit, wanting to escape into the underwater world.  Sometimes its too cold, but I still want to see.

Longest Time Without Swimming

Funny, since I last swam in Walden, I have spent a very long time out of the water.  I used to crave being able to dance freely, without gravity, inside the water.

I miss it, but not enough to brave the cold.  Although it is nice to know I could.

Has it been a month?  I've forgotten to keep track!  That's how long it is!

Nothing Compares to Walden

Sometimes, you have to just admit it, when Walden is around, nothing can come close.

Even in NYC, when the pool is so accessible, there is still the idea of Walden, the open water.  The expansiveness of it.

Chlorine is intolerable!!

(Hopefully until the pool seems warm compared to Walden and a nice alternative!)

An Ocean of Seaweed

It's one thing to swim through ponds, where you know the weeds and can break through the ice and the pond scum like a racetrack.

But the ocean, constantly moving, you are never sure where you are.
The ground moves beneath you.

Terrifying.

The Impotence of Rage

And the guy who worked so hard to get her there, in the moment.  There she was, although she wasn't afraid of being raped.  She had been through worse.  And she wasn't tied up here, although he thought she was.  She was ready to attack him, ready to grab whatever she could, with her free hand when he was in the midst of distraction.

But he was always limp, and she didn't want to make it worse for him that way.  She looked away, played the terrified girl when she realized he was powerless.

He left the room and she shrugged.  Now, how to get out of the house. He's not a danger naymore, just an annoyance. (She hoped)

Her Brother in The Garden

I still think of Her Brother in the Garden.

He knows her, but is behind the glass.

Did he get her pregnant?  Did he think he did?

Is that why he can't talk anymore?? (That and all the violence he did to himself)

Vanderbilt YMCA Pool

I love it!! 

Actually, there are 2.  I got a tour, but was utterly lost my first time. The tour was Tuesday, 5:45. The big pool had at least 3 people per lane, which I thought was crowded and the tour guide said it was "busy".

The next night, I went and shared a lane, circle swimming, with 3 other people. It felt giant compared to Greenpoint.

And not crowded at all!!